I Hid for A Year: My Personal Transformation Story

Around this time last year, coinciding with my birthday, I declared it to be my Esther year. Little did I know that my declaration would truly come to pass. Esther, a young girl, was taken into the King’s palace, stripped and scrubbed, hidden in plain sight until her purification was complete. She then emerged as a warrior saving many. My story, though less grueling, marks my personal transformation. Allow me to explain.

During a daily walk, I told God I was overwhelmed. I juggled many roles: church leader, business owner, wife, mother, and friend. Feeling inadequate, I expressed my exhaustion to God, who replied, “I don’t have a gun to your head.” This surprised me, as it meant I was clinging to a false narrative. As a recovering people-pleaser, the idea of not DOING something was foreign. I was taught to never give up, to serve and give, no matter the circumstances. No breaks, no days off. God then introduced the concept of “hiding” for a year. In my prayer closet, He told me, “…LaCreasha, this is where I am going to take you for almost a year’s time. Can you remain obscure while I bring about necessary change in your life?” Intrigued and confused, I agreed. I withdrew from social media, declined ministry invitations, and stepped down as a church leader. This was difficult, as all I wanted was to be a church girl. I passed the baton. I could no longer find my value in titles and accomplishments.

As I stepped back, more challenges arose. My family faced loss and legal threats. Our business suffered, and my mental health declined. Life unraveled over weeks and months. It seemed like my ministry vanished. I questioned my identity, struggling to recognize the woman who hosted conferences and preached to hundreds. Yet, even in turmoil, God was present. My husband’s optimism and humor kept me strong. A woman, now my spiritual mother, felt led by God to support me through fasting and prayer. Our family helped us without question. God consistently demonstrated that my worth was never about achievements but about who I was. Finances, fortune and fame could not define me. This realization was key to understanding what I now know is the emergence of HIS BRIDE!

Now, it’s time to rebuild. It’s our day to restore Jerusalem, to move the ark of the covenant from Obed Edom’s house to the city of David. The ark, representing God’s presence, blessed Obed Edom’s household for three months. We can no longer waste time sitting. We’ve prayed, fasted, and feasted on his Word, but now it’s time to march back into the open space for His glory to be revealed. It’s time for God’s Bride to make a bold entrance, filled with the anointing. It’s Wedding season and It’s Time to Prepare the BRIDE, “Beautifully Restoring Identity to Develop the Ecclesia.”

With that being said, I want to invest in 10 women ready to restore their identity. Women who are willing to let go of what was and step into what is. Women ready to embrace their true identity and purpose, to stand firm and not waver. I aim to share what God has taught me during this year of being hidden. I want these women to truly taste and see the goodness of the Lord and know their TRUE identity. 

This program isn’t for everyone. I didn’t emerge from the shadows just to place my face on another flyer or to grace another platform. No, it’s bigger than that. I am here to follow God’s clear instructions. When you look at me, you are looking at an anomaly. Despite once being the shyest person in a room, God called ME to lead and equip an end time army. I state it boldly because that’s where God has brought me from. If He can use me, imagine what He can do through you!

Who wants to join me? Who wants to rise higher? Check the program website for details!